Mind Spinning

Thinking does no good. One must take action. Lately I have been thinking about a lot and taking no action. Yes, yes, you all know what I think about... telling parents, moving, relationships... well it is about time that something is done about every one of those things. Just doing it is the hard part. It is so easy to bitch and moan on the net because no one will really read this and if someone does it really doesn’t make a huge difference to me.

Jeff, Jeff, Jeff, you again become the topic of one of my problems. In the coming days we will have to have a real conversation about where our 'relationship' is going. I know from the start it was only to have fun, but I think that we are not on the same page in this relationship. Maybe I am just freaking out and have thought myself into confusion/worry, but nevertheless I have some true feelings I need to get out before things get even more serious between us. To me it seems that everything that I wanted in the beginning isn't what I want now... I thought it would be fun to mess around, but now, even though we are not exclusive, I still have this emptiness I thought a 'relationship' could fill and I am left feeling still empty and with strange guilt.

Enough of this, I am getting too venty on the whole subject. G'Night.