Lyrics


And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409 And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already take...

These are the lyrics to 'What Sara Said' by Death Cab for Cutie. Here they are complete:

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That Ive already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

Cause theres no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone lift their heads
But Im thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So whos gonna watch you die? So whos gonna watch you die?

This song really sums up my hospital experience with Luke. I've done and experience everything in this song, including watching him die. It was love and no one can take that from me or tell me different.

Noooooo!

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Sick Sucks!


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Understood!

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Enough Gloom


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Tragic

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