Past Few Days


The past few days have gone pretty well. I kinda just got over the whole ordeal from the past few blogs. I am just not going to worry about that anymore. Time will tell. Work is the same bla bla bla, ...



A Second Chance, Please!


Like I mentioned in my last blog, I made a terrible mistake. Today I am still trying to undo the wrongs. Unfortunately first impressions are the most important and now I have not necessary made an en...


General Going Ons


Life for me has become almost normal this past week. I haven't been depressed much at all, a little sad every once in a while, but nothing compared as to what I was going through a few weeks ago. The ...



I'm Back!


I was not crazy enough to get admitted to Ricard Young. I could see the disapointment in my mom's eyes when they told me that I could go home. I left Richard Young with a huge print out of counselors ...



Chaos Brain

Chaos brain is the best way to explain what is going on in my brain right now. My mood at work sunk and sunk as the day wore on. Thinking about Luke, being tired of pretending to be happy for customer...



UGH! Parents!


Well last night my mom wanted to talk to me because she could see that I was not doing very well. So I told her about everything that has been going on bla bla bla. Anyhow, my mom didn't go to work to...


Decisions

A lot has been going on lately and I am having lots of problems dealing with everything. I talked with my parents yesterday and they suggested that I take the semester off to get my head cleared. I re...



Something Good


Despite how much today sucked for me, one really good thing happened. I went to walmart and got a sweet ass printer. It is one of the printer/scanner/copier types. I am sitting here wasting paper and ...



I Feel...

Today so far I am feeling depressed. I am overwhelmed with school work. My room is a mess. I want to cry for no aparent reason. I feel like curing up in my bed and just lie there forever. Absolutely n...



Session 2

Today was my second session of counceling and it went really well. Again I don't think it was anything particularly amazing, but it just provides me with someone to talk to for an hour about anthing. ...



New Focus


There is nothing wrong with missing Luke, but I think sometimes that is all I think about and then I forget about all the good times. I am going to try to shift my focus from everything that I miss to...



One Month


Well, today it has been one month since Luke died. Surprisingly the day went alright. I was driving in my car and saw the digits on my odometer read 111111.1 miles. That was kinda cool until it flippe...