Dreams...

It seems that about twice a week I have dreams about Luke. If I did a better job dream logging I would be able to describe them, but I haven't. All I can say is that no matter how ridiculous the dream...


What have I done?


Today I realized that I have made a terrible mess between a very close friend. I talked for a while with them, but I don't feel that any of the wounds have healed, so to speak. My only solution to thi...



Oh For School

Already after the third day of school I am tired of it. I have a few assignment to work on to keep my busy, but not really that I want to do them anyhow. Today I am feeling ok, which is better than ye...


Today

Today went fine. Nothing to bitch about for the most part and I wasn't depressed or anything. Out of curiousity I learned how to knit. It is kinda alright, but really it should be left for old ladys. ...



Getting Help


Well, I finally decided that maybe I need some counseling to help my situation. I've had serious suicidal thoughts twice now since Luke died and I think maybe it's time to get some professional help.....


... another day


I was thinking of writing a blog about how depressed and lonely I was today, but no, I will keep it short. All I have to say is that today was a rough day. I put up a good front, but I was broken insi...



In memory of Luke


As most of you all already know my boyfriend, partner. and love passed away on the 2nd of August. I still cannot put to words every emotion that I feel. So much has happened over this past six weeks, ...



I think I made an error, I'm sure Luke died on the 3rd of August, not the 2nd.